London Drizzle ♡

 

Today was a real struggle from the moment I got up. Definitely one of those days where I wanted to cancel but I had a psychologist appointment and I got off my arse to go to that. I also had packages to pick up and some grocery shopping to do. 

I made it through the day, but I had to take a lot of breaks to deal with anxiety. Today was my second appointment and so far my body and mind are reacting a lot - I will do another post, getting into it. Just happy with myself that I got through today. Tomorrow will be better ♡ 

 

RAYE ♡

 

I have fallen absolutely in love with Raye lately and it has been a bit of a guilty pleasure. Her studio recordings really aren't to my taste at all, they are too computer. 

However, her live performances are pure perfection. Her range, presence, all of it ♡ Enjoy 

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I apologise for not posting much lately. My physical and mental health went downhill fast, so I needed to prioritise dealing with that above anything else. With help from professionals, self-care, and the world's greatest, most supportive boyfriend, my mental health is slowly getting better - it takes time! I am ready to start blogging again, but honestly, my days mostly consist of me fighting to get through another day of pain, lots of binging series, and lots of rest - so I will have to get creative regarding content. With the amount of music I listen to, Music Monday is back and since I am sat in front of a screen most of the time, Film Friday and Series Saturday are back as well. There is a Sinful Calendar this year waiting to be shown off in December, which I am very excited about. And I will share more about my mental health journey - as I have before. Therapy, support, and self-care are the most important things in my life right now and I will get through this rough path. 

I see that I still have about the same amount of readers, even though I haven't posted anything new - so THANK YOU for supporting me and still checking in. Means the world to me ♡

NEW CAR ♡

 

 

My current hair is my natural hair colour, which for those who don't know, is dark brown with a red tint. My grey hairs are really showing and I overall just have no self-confidence lately, so I thought a little change might help. Cannot be arsed to go to the hairdresser for a simple colouring, so went with box dye. Actually turned out really well. Been a while since I have done this at home and I wasn't entirely sure about the colour, but I like it ♡ 

 

After getting the new apartment, I just kept paying rent to the old place for months. It has come to an end and it needed to be emptied out. This process was a struggle, which is why it was put off for so long. Things got packed in boxes, some furniture got thrown out, the place was cleaned and the keys were returned. I am thrilled to be rid of the old place, as it weighed on me mentally, knowing it was waiting to be dealt with. Living there was a huge stepping stone for me and I enjoyed it. Now someone else gets to enjoy it ♡

 

Had an appointment this morning with an anaesthesiologist to go over things for my endoscopy and colonoscopy later this month. She was really nice and talked a lot! The procedure can be done while being awake but I want to be fully under which she understood completely. If you do it awake you can get a mild sedative and I asked if I could get that even though I will be fully sedated and asleep, because I would still get high levels of anxiety leading up to the part where I'm under - which she agreed to! There was also other things we had to go over as I have had a blood lot previously and of course my IBD plays a factor as well. Nervous about it all but she was so sweet it actually helped calm me a bit. 

After the hospital, Lasse and I were off to my old apartment to continue packing, disassembling furniture and cleaning. I am in a lot of pain, stressed and my OCD is so triggered, so I do occasionally bite his head off - which he handles like a champ! Cant wait for this whole month to be over with! 

 

Remember me being at the doctors due to abdomen pain? Well my stool sample and blood work didn't show anything, so I have to get an endoscopy and a colonoscopy. Today I met with a doctor at the hospital about the procedures and got some reading material, along with some meds to take days leading up to the procedures. Then we scheduled for an appointment with an anaesthesiologist. Still in pain and I am nervous about what it could be, but I would rather know than not knowing. Sorry I'm not blogging much lately, I am just really unwell ♡

Christmas Presents ♡ Thank You!

 

Christmas presents ♡ Along with a gift card and money for Hygge