I had week 6 & 7 off from school and recovery things - so I really wanted to treat myself to a shopping trip in Aarhus - which is 30 minutes by train from me. There is a fancy grocery store there that I just LOVE! I love the things you can buy there and the store is just so beautiful and aesthetically satisfying. Crazy expensive though!
So I took the train there and I only had a few hours there, because I needed to make it back in time for a meeting here in Horsens - which I had timed perfectly with train times. Apart from this trip being a treat, it was also a little challenge (which later turned into a big challenge) Hopefully I will be studying in Aarhus, starting September, so I wanted to challenge myself by taking the train there, figured a few times back and forth and then my OCD and anxiety should be fine and well used to it. The trip there went well, low anxiety level and I made it to Salling Super aka HEAVEN! And perfectly timed as well, there was SNOW!
Did my shopping, walked back to the train station in good time, so anxiety and OCD wouldn't take over. As I stand there looking at the screen with train times, over half the trains suddenly got cancelled! And then came the panic in my body and mind! Then my train got moved to another platform, but then they showed the wrong platform on the screen - now getting pressured with time as well, because it was arriving soon. we all walked back and forth a few times, everyone getting annoyed and the people working there got annoyed as well because because asked them a million questions. Finally I got to the right platform and we were told that a train derailed and our train would be a bit delayed. then they kept delaying it, leaving us standing in the cold, not informing us of anything and my phone died due to its annoying sensitivity to cold.. The train gets there and then we end up sitting on the train for ages as well - but at least I can charge my phone and inform the people I was meeting with that I couldn't make it in time. I was crying inside! A situation like this just really triggers my OCD and anxiety and I find it difficult having to deal with it alone. I did manage to survive it, made it home and when I was home I was exhausted!
So the whole taking the train thing is so I can get used to it and convince OCD/anxiety part of my brain that nothing bad will happen - but the last two times I had to take the train something like this happened. So that doesn't help - thankfully it hasn't scared me off completely yet! I survived it and I can do it again! To be honest, before the whole train panic moment it felt really good - being independent ♡
And look at all the nice things that I bought! Very happy with the end result!
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