Music Monday ♫

Habit - Gabrielle Shonk

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Figures - Jessie Reyez

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Had a really fun night last night with a new friend - we stayed up late and I had a great time. Been having some shitty weeks so this helped a lot. Today I slept in, did my laundry, cleaned up a bit, and made a shopping list for tomorrow - payday! Also got some homework done and enjoyed a well-deserved foot mask ♡

 

I am having a bit of a bad day here - result is I broke my phone...

So I can be reached on Facebook Messenger, iMessage, email, and carrier pigeon or owl

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Had my second session with the school psychologist today. Last time it was over Teams and today it was at her office - so it was nice to finally meet her in person. I think she is really kind and she does help. We talked about me having had panic/anxiety attacks so bad for the past almost two weeks that I haven't been able to leave my own apartment. I have tried but then had a panic attack and turned around. She gave me a few things I can do to calm myself down and to remind myself that I have overcome being trapped once - I can do it again and that I should never have to go back to being trapped in my own home or anywhere. I am in control. Easier said than done, but I am working on it. Since I was already out and her office building was right next to the mall - I went and used a gift card I had. Bought fake nails - I have terrible nails so just wanted to try these out. I cut them short though, I hate long nails.  

Later I met with my grandad. He drove up here to drink a cup of coffee with me and give me some of my grandma's things, my Christmas gifts, and an old clock they had in their living room I have always wanted to inherit. I am so proud of how he is handling it all after she passed. I liked having that alone time with my grandad and I loved that out of the two of us he was actually the one talking the most - usually, it's me.  And we were out getting that coffee, so that was a challenge that I aced! Had a lot of anxiety before he got here, but when he was here it all just went away. I also showed him my apartment - which now only he and my sister have seen. All in all - a very good day ♡
 

Music Monday - Munchausen By Proxy

 

Happy Birthday to Jim Carrey & Zooey Deschanel 

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Here is some Munchausen By Proxy from the Yes Man Soundtrack 

Sweet Ballad

Uh - Huh

Yes Man

Keystar

Film Friday - The Book Thief

Today was actually really good. Had my first religion class which I absolutely loved. Our teacher is great and he is good at explaining things. I also in general find religion interesting, but when in school it does depend a lot on the teacher - whether I like the class or not. I also had Social Studies with the same guy that failed me in Social Studies last year - fortunately today it was a virtual class. I don't like Social Studies but after failing last year and the teacher treating me poorly - I have decided to give it my very best. Also math class was a bit too much for me today - I ended up having a panic attack and sat crying in the bathroom for 20 minutes. Fun as school was today I am very happy that it is the weekend. I struggled a lot getting up this morning, so I think I just need to sleep in tomorrow morning - though knowing me I will wake up at 9.30. 

After school, I had a phone call check-in with my contact person and then I did homework. Now I just finished watching a film with a friend, eating Friday Sweets and now I am ready for bed. I highly reccomend this film. It is sweet, fun and very sad at the same time. It does take place during WW2 and we are currently studying that subject in History, so fitted perfectly for tonights film. 

Goodnight ♡

 

Something really amazing happened! They finally removed the bicycles and put up signs not to park in front of the mailboxes. First of all, this is just a fault in design but yeah this has limited me so much since I moved here. It was too much for my OCD to handle because of all the crawlies and webs on the parked bikes that I actually couldn't access my own mailbox. My contact person, Dan, and others have been helping me get my mail till now. I have on a rare occasion done it myself in case of no bikes. Adding to that I kept getting 3 times of every junk mail and catalog, which for one person is just ridiculous and unnecessary. I emailed a lot of people complaining about all of this, contacted other people in my building to help get this done and I contacted the junk mail people to stop with the 3 times of the same crap. It worked and I feel so relieved. I can get my own mail! Might be a tiny thing for others, but it is huge and life-changing for me.

 

My life is now better ♡
 

Out With the Old - In With the New

 

I know, I get way too excited about tiny silly things - but look at this! My MasterCard expired and they sent me a new one and look how cool and pretty it is! Loving this design so much and it is made handier for paying with the wireless chip thingy. I am obsessed with this card! I put the old card next to it in comparison at the bottom - I removed it on the picture, but the old one had numbers in the front. 

That's it - just a random share about something that made me happy today 

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New Year's Eve Makeup ♡

 

Here is the makeup I used on New Year's Eve. The Mac foundation, Rimmel London powder, Real Techniques brushes, and the Lancôme mascara are from Matas. The Technic Eyeshadow palette is from Normal. The eyelash curler is from H&M ♡ On the third picture of the eyeshadow palette I marked the ones I used with little hearts ♡

SelfieSunday - New Years Eve ♡

 

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Exhausted today after barely any sleep. A random guy messaged me last night saying he was close to me. A few minutes later a guy is walking outside and he looks up and makes eye contact with me - then he just sat down outside staring into my apartment. An hour later he stood right outside my door. Didn't knock, just stood there. I called the police and they just said if he hasn't knocked or rang my bell there was nothing they could do and that I could report him on the app where he messaged me. I was terrified and really uncomfortable. I did yell at him that I was calling the police and a few minutes later he went away - but yeah safe to say I did not sleep much. 

My day today was spent relaxing, putting plans and school stuff in my 2022 calendar and for dinner, I had homemade burgers - was the most scrumptious thing ever! Tomorrow I am going to meet up with my contact person for a check in and then I am going to the gym. Also gonna get a few things sorted for school - which starts on Tuesday. I am actually excited to go back to school and normal life. As much as I love having all time in the world for hobbies and such, I need structure in my everyday life. Too much time off and I fall back into bad habits and OCD takes over. So will be good to be back in school - also we will be adding Religion and Social Studies to our schedule - yay!!!  

Goodnight lovelies ♡