Had my second session with the school psychologist today. Last time it was over Teams and today it was at her office - so it was nice to finally meet her in person. I think she is really kind and she does help. We talked about me having had panic/anxiety attacks so bad for the past almost two weeks that I haven't been able to leave my own apartment. I have tried but then had a panic attack and turned around. She gave me a few things I can do to calm myself down and to remind myself that I have overcome being trapped once - I can do it again and that I should never have to go back to being trapped in my own home or anywhere. I am in control. Easier said than done, but I am working on it. Since I was already out and her office building was right next to the mall - I went and used a gift card I had. Bought fake nails - I have terrible nails so just wanted to try these out. I cut them short though, I hate long nails.
Later I met with my grandad. He drove up here to drink a cup of coffee with me and give me some of my grandma's things, my Christmas gifts, and an old clock they had in their living room I have always wanted to inherit. I am so proud of how he is handling it all after she passed. I liked having that alone time with my grandad and I loved that out of the two of us he was actually the one talking the most - usually, it's me. And we were out getting that coffee, so that was a challenge that I aced! Had a lot of anxiety before he got here, but when he was here it all just went away. I also showed him my apartment - which now only he and my sister have seen. All in all - a very good day ♡
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