Ugh, I was sick all day yesterday with food poisoning - did not feel great! Today I pulled myself together, despite still not feeling okay, and went to school. I had math tutoring at 9 and then two hours of math class followed by two hours of chemistry. We did an experiment with an acid-basic reaction. My OCD is not great with these experiments, so I went to the bathroom 3 times to have a panic attack and cry like a mad person - then pulled myself together and got back into class. Badass me! But it did require energy I didn't have. After school I had to go down and see my contact person t recovery - we discussed me not having to be in recovery anymore. So we are going to phase it out and then I will be free. I am gonna miss her and the recovery place, but I don't really need it anymore. It was a difficult decision to make because I feel safe having that safety net, but it just doesn't make sense to have it now that I don't need it anymore. I can take care of myself now and yes I do have struggles - but they have done everything they can for me and now it is time for me to move on. Also, I can still visit them if I want to.
Long day for me and I am now beyond exhausted but I still have a ton of homework that needs to be done. will do it with good music and a smile on my lips knowing I gave it my best today and I will sleep so well tonight! Hope all of you had a great day ♡
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