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#SelfcareSunday & Laundry!

 

Hey lovelies! I woke up today from a horrible nightmare that felt so real! I was sweating and shaking and needed a few minutes to actually return to reality again. It is afternoon now and it still haunts me. Good thing was that when I woke up a friend was texting me, making me feel a lot better and safe. I have to just shake it off and move on - although these nightmares are based on previous trauma, there is nothing that can be done about it now and they are just bad dreams. 

Today I did a little self pampering with a "butt lift" and some light tanning, while I did my laundry and then I have been spending the past two hours fixing stuff on the blog. So now the icons in the top right corner will actually redirect you to the right things. When this blog was first crated I paid someone to do the design because I have no idea what I am doing when it comes to computers! Hopefully it works now and everything looks good? You should also be able to sign up for getting reminder emails when I post something - I would like to get some feedback on that if someone does it - if it works or not ♡ Thanks 

Also I really love the smell of this tanning lotion, like addicted to it. and yes I cheat when it comes to folding my laundry - fits so much better in my closet and if it is good enough for Sheldon Cooper, it is good enough for me! 

♡

# Series Saturday - Riverdale (spoilers ahead)

 

I admit it, I am a Riverdale fan! So much that my ringtone the past couple of years have been the same as Betty Cooper has when The Black Hood calls her. So naturally I get really excited when there are new episodes and I watch them the second they get released on Netflix - if possible. But these new episodes.. what is going on? firstly, the acting all of the sudden seem forced and bad! The huge build up and excitement about the video tapes and then it turned out to just be a teen prank by Jellybean and her friends, to keep Jughead at home?! WHAT!? I am honestly very disappointed. And Archie joining the army.. Hello Mr Predictable. I know there are more episodes coming and as a fan I will of course watch them, but I am worried that they just messed it up and it will end up getting cancelled - despite them just confirming a next season. Apart from these episodes I really enjoy this series - so from the bottom of my heart - DO NOT MESS THIS UP PLEASE! 

#FilmFriday Perfume: Story Of a Murderer

 

Oh I have watched this so many times and I can just keep watching it. I find it oddly calming, so I usually end up falling asleep to it - I'm sure it's the soundtrack and not the murders that calm me ;) But this time I managed to stay awake. 

Story time! So when I first moved in to recovery I had to do this EEG (An Electroencephalogram that detects brain activity and then your brain cells communicate via impulses - basically it is supposed to help me calm my anxiety and OCD) During the first stage of EEG I had to sit and watch a film (any film of my choosing) with these electrodes on my head and if I had anxiety the screen in which I was watching the film on would then distort the image, make the image smaller or the screen would just go black (because of my brain impulses) Me knowing how calm this film makes me feel I of course picked this to watch. I had not anticipated that my contact person would come and check on me every few minutes and there is A LOT of dead naked women in this.. So my contact person, who never ever watches any films so had no clue as to what this film was about, keeps walking in on the most awkward scenes of the main character sniffing dead naked women... AWKWARD! We both felt really awkward, so after that I picked the films I watched during EEG a little more carefully. Basically thinking "does this have any scenes that would be awkward to watch with your parents" before choosing. It is a very good film though and I shall continue watching it for many years - in my room, alone! 

The film is on HBO Nordic 

Enjoy ♡

Chemistry is My Life Now!

Called in sick downstairs today (the walk with my contact person) and she freaked a little because I admitted that I am not sick, just really sad. Some things have been going on here at recovery and it is just destroying me - thankfully I have people outside this place who care about me, so I survive with a little help from my friends. So because of me being so sad I didn't wanna show today she worried if I was gonna hurt myself, but I will be fine - just need a good cry for a couple of days. School was cancelled today because some students who take the full HF have today and next week to do that - so the rest of us get today and next week off, and after that its winter holidays for a week. I contacted my case worker and she approved that I can get two weeks off from recovery as well, so I GET TWO WEEKS OFF! YAY! 

I will however be spending some of those days off on catching up on homework/school as I have unfortunately fallen a bit behind. Everything was due today, but my kind teacher called me and gave me an extension for Wednesday and offered to help over the weekend. At this point I am extremely happy that our classes are online (because of corona) and our teacher records them and saves them in Teams, so I can rewatch classes and properly catch up! 

Despite being sad and hurt - I did have a really nice outing with someone yesterday, so that has made me smile a lot today and helped motivate me ♡

The rest of today will be spent picking up a package, more studying and of course film Friday - I have not yet decided what to watch! For brunch I had lactose free yoghurt with dragonfruit and frozen grapes & iced coffee with vanilla syrup ♡