As part of recovery, I am "interning" at recovery as a cleaning lady.. So I have to clean the entire floor. I do not aspire to be a cleaning lady. This was set up for me because I was unable to get a real internship due to my limitations with OCD and then with Covid. Today was my second last day doing this (I do it every Thursday). I didn't mind it so much when I actually lived in the building and used these areas to hang out - but now I barely spend any time here so feels less satisfying.
I also talked with my contact person who is doing everything she can to get in touch with the right people about my education and what I am supposed to do now. I guess I will know tomorrow or the beginning of next week. Waiting for other people to decide what is going to happen to me in life and financially is extremely stressful. Everything right now just feels surreal and pointless.
I also got tested for Covid today, as I need Corona Pass for the gym, and this morning when I ate breakfast - I could not taste it! so was worried for a second, but the test came back negative.
Dan and I spent the evening going for a drive, talking, and trying to work things out. We do love each other very much, so of course, we want to make it work
Gonna sleep now and hope tomorrow will be better
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