Proud girl here... I challenged myself big time Wednesday evening and today. Wednesday after having what most people would probably define as a breakdown I dragged my crying self out the door for a long drive with a friend, I went food shopping and used a public toilet. I felt like dying by the time I was about to go out my own front door, but I actually ended up having a really fun evening. We were supposed to go to the cinema but with me having a massive anxiety attack I started feeling warm and sweaty which made it all worse and it took longer to cool down than what time we had left to make it to the cinema for the film - so we decided to do it Saturday instead.
Today I cleaned Finnick´s (my bunny) cage for the first time ever - I think - and it didn't kill me. It's usually Morten or my assistant that does it because I can't lift the cage and it's too much for my OCD to deal with, but I did it and I don't regret it at all. Then I had a big dinner - Sushi - yet another struggle, but kept it all down and I feel like a whale now but that will pass. I have to gain weight and up my daily calorie intake for a hospital appointment next month. After all that I seriously needed to hoover, but I decided to skip that and just accept that it's only dirty in my mind, not in my flat - OCD nightmare! Now I'm watching Lobster with Morten and looking forward to a sponsored trip to the cinema tomorrow!
I'm sorry if this post upset some people, but part of me being healthy and getting through my daily struggles is to sometimes share it on here - also so others who struggle can see they are not alone and that even though I appear "healthy and perfect" to some people, I am fragile, I struggle every day and I fight to survive ♡