Went to Kolding today to see my sister Lea and our grandad also joined us for a little bit. It has been a while since I last took the train, so I am a little out of practice and that feeds anxiety. Was really nervous and filled with anxiety but so excited to see my sister and grandad again, so worth it! I got on a direct train from Horsens to Kolding and I did have a seat - but this young kid took my seat and I dont like conflict so I just sat in a different seat that was empty and then I would just have to move if someone claimed it. Which did give me anxiety at about every station where we stopped - but it didnt happen. I even managed to listen to some music to relax (listened to Florence & the Machine) till I got there.
My sister was at the train station waiting for me and that welcome hug was so needed! My sister makes me instantly comfortable and makes me feel so safe. We walked from the train station to one of her hangouts to meet with our grandad who was already there waiting for us. We sat, drank coffee and lemonade, talked and just caught up. This was the first time the three of us have ever been together just us three - which we should definitely do more often. After our grandad went home we stayed for one more cup and then we strolled the city and went shopping for a bit, then we returned to share a bottle of Rosé while waiting for Leas boyfriend to get off work so we could go to his place for dinner. I also finally got to give Lea her Christmas present - Harry Potter Trivial Pursuit. She was very excited about it and I am so happy she liked it - and happy to get it out of my apartment because I was so tempted to unpack it and keep it for myself ♡
Leas boyfriend cooked a delicious risotto with pulled pork and then we just talked and relaxed till I had to go back home.
The train ride home was already gonna be shit because there was no direct train back to Horsens, so I had to change trains in Fredericia which is already way too much for my anxiety to handle. Then I got a notification that the train I had to change to was moved. Lea did some breathing exercises with me and calmed me down - which all went down the drain when I got on the train - which was btw the most overfilled train I have ever been on. I couldnt even get to my seat. And as we were standing there like sardines I had a full on anxiety attack, was crying and on the phone trying to calm down. Several people asked if I was okay and this really nice guy offered me some cold water. When we got to Fredericia I found my train but it was equally filled with people, but figured if I could just get to my seat I would be fine. I was NOT. Someone else was in my seat cleaiming it was her seat. So this really lovely family from Copenhagen let me have one of their seats so I could sit down and they helped calm me down. I got to Horsens in one peace but wow that was a lot for me.
Apart from the train rides I really had the most wonderful day and I enjoyed it so much. I enjoyed seeing where my sister and her friends hang out sometimes, I enjoyed meeting her boyfriend and just being part of her world for the day. Perfect way to end the summer holidays before going back to school on Monday
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I really enjoyed the bathroom grafitti ♡ The place was clean and it was a good read
Also just proud of myself for going - a year or two ago I would not have been able to Big win for ME
