April Snapchats ♡

 

 

Had a really long and shitty night! So I am starting my Crohns meds today which is gonna basically take away my immune system and ruin my appetite. So I thought I would celebrate my last "normal" day - and since my stomach hurts day and night anyways, I figured I would have one day of eating my craving foods which I am both allergic to and my stomach can't handle. So yesterday my ex and I got craving foods, drank and listened to music. We ended up having a huge fight. I was pushed down the stairs, my things were thrown outside and I was thrown out as well. The police got involved and they followed me home to make sure I was safe - The whole situation and it being the night between Friday and Saturday. So many drunk people outside and I didn't feel comfortable walking home alone since the time I was assaulted on that route at night. Today I am bruised, in a lot of pain, and overall not feeling great. P came by with food from Sunset as my last comfort meal and he stayed for a few hours helping with some practical stuff and watching a film (Kun en Pige). I spent the rest of the day studying for exams and watching Grey's Anatomy - the episodes (spoiler) where George died, Izzie has cancer, and that ceviche girl is being a B. So all the good stuff. Now I am going to make the April Snapchats post and read before bedtime. Currently re-reading Winter of the World by Ken Follett. 

Tomorrow will be a better day

Night all ♡ 

Now with IBD ♡

I have been diagnosed with IBD. This wasn't a huge shock for me because my doctor have been telling me it was a possibility. But then actually getting the diagnosis is something else. I am not shocked, just feeling weird about it all. I had a friend who died from this and it is a huge adjustment to make. It's all just a little too much and there is so much to know about it all. I got these guide pics from someone on Instagram who suffers from the same. It's a lot to take in and a lot to process - for me and those around me. I will of course share more over time here on the blog and on other social media. For now, I am just gonna breathe and let it all sink in. 

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 I had a shitty day today. My school kept changing the schedule for today. Then I have been sick all day with severe stomach pain, on and off fever, and threw up - Doesn't feel like the flu, feels like my stomach lining is giving up a bit. In general, it feels like my body is giving up on me lately. My guidance counselor also messaged me today that shed like a talk with me tomorrow - which just made my anxiety go crazy. I am so scared that they'll kick me out. And I have another meeting tomorrow before my meeting with her - so I need to skip school for that as well. One good thing that happened today was that I finally found a pair of leggings that fit. All of mine were worn down and had holes, so desperately needed new ones. The ones I usually buy were sold out or out of stock for 3 months! Now I found a pair of similar leggings, but shorter. I guess it is almost summer, so will give them a chance. Public announcement! If you live in Horsens, wear sunglasses! My pale legs will be showing! 

Now I am gonna spend the evening and night trying to catch up with enough homework to prove to the school they shouldn't kick me out. Hopefully, I get to stay ♡

Sorry for the rant. I needed to vent

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I cut my hair! Just bangs, so don't worry. I will show pictures later ♡

Look at all those grey hairs! I really want to be blonde again when I can afford it - which requires me to get that job I applied to. So I can't dye my hair brown at home to get rid of the grey. I will just have to wait and get used to it. The 30's are around the corner! 

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I visited Ude-Bo (recovery) today. By the end of this month, I am no longer in the system and I will just be a "normal" person. I obviously still struggle with OCD and Anxiety, but it is manageable and now I am ready to be completely on my own. I will still visit UDe-Bo sometimes though. A lot of people who used to be there still visit, even years after. I miss living there sometimes. I miss that there is always someone around in case I need to talk or need guidance as to how to get through some things. I miss the comfort of knowing everyone in the building and feeling safe in a different way. But I also love being free and having my own place. I love the "normal" life and knowing that I made it out. I made it. All the trauma, all the shit I went through - I made it and I am now building a life for myself. 

It is nice coming back to visit and everyone saying they are happy to see me and asking how I am and asking how school is going. I feel like I moved away from home and then visited my childhood home - my safety/comfort zone. Had some nice talks with a new friend today and was put in a really good mood. Put my foot down today and told someone who isn't good for me, to f off and never contact me again. That feels so good. Self-care at its best! I need people around me who respect me and who love me - someone I feel safe and comfortable with. I deserve that! (that has taken me a long time to admit) 

When I got home this afternoon I was a mix of exhausted yet over-caffeinated - I was shaking! I am doing intermittent fasting, so I fast Wednesday and Saturday. Not eating and then 4-5 cups of coffee - Vibrate Mode On! Once I settled down I tidied up a bit, listened to some music, and read up on some exam stuff. My Biology/Geography/Chemistry exam is Tuesday - so I better prepare. I am off school this whole week and Monday, so I got time ♡

Hope everyone had a great day 

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I love how they decorated for easter ♡ 

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